Over 24 years of doing massage, I've seen all kinds of people and their stories, and I can tell you - it's not a breakup, it's just a natural drifting apart. Life pulls people in different directions, and that's normal, especially when distance and worry get in the way. That awkwardness when you run into each other - it's not the pain of a breakup, it's just a moment of readjustment, when you need time to remember how you used to talk to each other. If you want to check if there's still something between you, just write - but don't pressure yourself about it, like you should have written sooner. That's just how life is, it ebbs and flows.